Haven't blogged in forever, you should totally understand my schedule and lack of inspiration. Since now I'm darn sick from watching people sing and dance Indian twinkle twinkle little star in the rain, and being revenge-ed upon by my oh-so-wonderful juniors with a lot of water, I couldn't concentrate a lot of work ... just wanted to hibernate all day long. Doesn't anyone feel drowsy?

Lots of things happened, but those can wait. I shall blog about ELDDS camp 08' first.

Ahaha, just a few weeks before camp, I've been poring over that difficult-to-do activity. But everything paid off in the end. But cos of camp, I've been sleeping real late, like 1am-ish for a few days straight. Can't help it if it clashes with musical, SLC and 45th.

The theme of the camp: To Art and To Life. Plus the camp groups: Kameleon, Risata, Attitude, Fiesta, Paraiso. All decided by yours truly. The power rocks, yeah baby! Haha, it's such a pity that most people don't think too much about the theme and the group names, just throw in something crappy and go with the motions of a forced camp, both on campers and instructors.

It's retarded because it's a lot easier to stray from the objectives and directions of camp. Seriously, doesn't anyone feel it should be linked to the outcome of the camp that people want to see? Ya ... crappy names like Power Rangers, Hulk .. haha camp happens so often for councillors I find that they tend to take it for granted. Good thing I don't wear a tie and EL has me. MEMEMEME!

So anyways, shall only post the document done for the camp theme and groups in the next post. To me, it sure is a real honour to decide all this, haha must be cos the other seniors too washed out from other things. Good thing my creativity flow still up to standard.

This is a post from a first-time camp instructor's point of view. The courtroom drama took a lot of effort, and I'm kinda glad things turned out the way it did. It would've been pointless to write out the script for them. Ma'am Clar and I were in-charge of this activity, and it made up the chunk of the drama-debate training portion during camp. Mission Accomplished.

Staying up the late nights, and last-minute preps. So sad, couldn't see them report first thing in the morning. Ahh, remembering the panic mode I was in running around the house at 7am, printing and changing. Nearly late, and Joan gave me a call and she sounded like she was gonna yell at me. Can't help it though .. I was sick. Prob from lack of sleep and how 45th nearly killed me the day before.

Things still went smoothly after the bumps in the morning. Thanks to the prayers and best wishes of very good friends, Clarissa's resourcefulness and my sense of urgency. Instructors can't be late .. so it really wasn't my day when 154 sped past me and I had to wait for 240 before cheonging to school.

It was great to don the black shorts in camp for once in my whole life, okay pathetic but it means a lot to me. And by shorts, I mean ... real short shorts. So stupid ... I think I stood out the most. I must thank you too for the pouch. My pocketfull of sunshine and I loved it.

Pre-camp was horrible and nerve-wrecking though. Think for both instructors and campers, and it sucks to always adhere to the senior-junior relationships with you guys. Haha i know there's lots of questions involved.

OK, time for dinner. FINALLY! DECENT FOOD IN SO LONG!

Labels: CCA, Friends, What's up or new, WhatcausesJoy

MMMM! Omg, a few days of emo-ness and mood swings, then with relatively nothing that interests me enough to eat at home, I finally gave in just now. Ahaha, felt this strange need to eat when I was feelin' blue, then I had some sweet bread. Yep, sweet bread, a whole load of empty carbs. And no, I don't think I have an eating probrem :). I'm just as normal as a girl wanting a bit of chocolate during heartbreak.

Well sweet bread was nicely topped with some sweetness (duh), a bit of sugar on top, and the skin was absolutely fragrant (even though it wasn't piping hot) and a joy to sink your teeth in. But the insides are a bit of a failure, GRR NOT SOFT ENOUGH.

Okay, so... here's my food list for today.

Noon (brunch) - Half a peanut-ish kueh (called mang zang kueh), with one youtiao (otherwise known as deep fried breadstick - doesn't it sound a lot classier like this?)

5plusPM - Spaghetti only a Constance's mum can make. She made thick spag noodle cruchy. Read: Crunchy!!! And I mean it, it's heavenly. Especially when every strand? of noodle is coated with Mushroom pesto sauce from Prego. IT ROCKS MY SOCKS OFF. Plus, Stephanie's having a craving for that too. Mmm, the delightful smell of mushrooms, sweet-sour tomato-ey sauce emanates (literally) from the plate of spaghetti.

In order to achieve that, she boiled the spag first and drained. Then fry the egg, prawns and sotong (otherwise known as squid or a blur person). Then in goes the noodles. And lastly the sauce. In the process the sauce is heated with everything else in the wok (yes a wok for spag adds the chinese touch of crunchiness). So it takes time for spag to absorb all the goodness of the spag, and some skill in turning the noodles. And wallah! I was happy for a few hours. (did i mention my bro kope some from me? GRR!) Ok I'm such a glutton! Oh well, nobody should be denied the simplicities of life.

Ahh, and around 11 plus, my tummy started to growl (so embarassing). Well for one thing, it's been like this for a while when I don't really satiate myself. Cos there isn't much to eat at home, (okay before you scold me), nothing I fancy putting into my mouth.

So in the end, I could only think of food. Well, today was the last straw, couldn't keep up with an empty stomach anymore. Ahaha, and the victims of the manifestation of my food craze in my mind from my tummy, were Stephanie and Hongwei. Since there was nothing on my mind except for food, I made them play this game: Take turns naming food, and see how many yes(s) and no(s), to see who has the most cravings.

I know it's creativity at hunger's turn.

So...

11plus-12plus My sweet mother couldn't stand me being hungry, (nahh she just whipped something up within 10 minutes cos I was at the com. So sweet! OKAY my hunger speaks for me). She made maggie with egg, plus orange juice fresh from the blender. Now I'm really full >.< and I can't go to bed. Oh yeah, had an apple, Calamansi lime juice, Cadbury's roast almond choc in between all that. Plus the sweet bread and a strawberry-and-cream lollipop. Sweetness craving definitely there. Ahhh Im sucha slacker!

So toodles there! Tomorrow I'm going to Mandai, S'pore zoo, armed with a Lumix cam and getting out of bed by 7.15. Think I'll be holding the camera all day long, and then uploading pics. Ah, family outings. Love it when it's all free. Though it's gonna eat up some of my time, I have an Mp3 ready.

So yeah, kids say the darndest things, though they don't really know what they're talking about, they try to squeeze the biggest words they know into simple sentences anyway. Kinda like what we do when we see words like "verbosity" and "perfidious" and "supercalifragilisticexpialidocious" (OMG I GOT IT RIGHT TOO!).

So yeah, while Shawn had something to say about theatres, my brother has something to say too. While wolfing down the grade A maggi noodles (a hungry man thinks everything tastes good), I gave him my musical script.

"What's this?"

"Script. Read the pink lines. Those are mine,"

- fails to read hanyu pinyin correctly - (such inability to read pinyin comes from my mom's side. Surprisingly, my dad and I pwn them both at pinyin, though my mom pwns us all at chinese characters. duh, chinese helicopter mah)

Ahaha, besides feeling very good about myself, my brother had to add in to my confidence. How sweet of him.

"You memorise already? What if you forget?" "Erm ... won't la" "Well, I humiliated myself once in P1. I was the emcee. - glum face - "

Oh really? -recalls what happened-"

He went on stage during some Rulang Primary gala dinner where parents show off their newest brilliantest accessories and their kids' brilliant newest SA results while cajoling the teacher's favour, with another girl classmate. They keep nudging each other and giggling nervously (ahh, kids these days, move onto such complicated relationships so fast. haha no la!). Whispers of "psst psst you first you first exchanged between the two budding first-timer emcees.

Someone gave in.

Then my brother said in a very soft voice "ladies and gentlemen ... "

- nervous giggle - - stare at audience breaking out in cold sweat - OMG so many adults staring at me!

- runs off stage giggling -

There, his first attempt at emcee-ing. I wasn't there to catch his embarassing moment on tape, but I had a feeling my parents were laughing at him, or slapping their foreheads. In one fell swoop, all the performing ability of my family was thrown away. Hopes of possibly another stage talent in the family bye-bye.

All integrity of being a performer and a speaker that I accumulated over the years ... a little 7yearold stripped it all during that few defining seconds(INTEGRITY! DON'T THINK OTHERWISE!). Thank God I wasn't there, Drama Co-ord of JSS ELDDS will mei lian jian ren. I swear if I was there, I would've shouted "I DON'T KNOW THAT KID UP THERE!" and made a dive underneath the table.

"Sooo ... what happened?"

"I was shy - glum-er face - But that was nothing compared to P2. I got a whole script to memorise. So waste time!"

Sweetie, I was memorising full performances at p3, and writing scripts at p4 :). Made some unforgettable friends, so I owe drama a lot. So yeah, this makes me wonder why I'm never picked to do emcee-ing. Lack of charisma? I really don't know, cos the question is, nobody really gave me a good look to assess my abilities at emcee-ing. Oh well, maybe I'm never for introducing plays, but for being in plays?

Well they picked my bro to be emcee cos he's noisy, talkative, 'outgoing', otherwise annoying in class. Who knew he'd be so quiet on stage? Well his tecahers? Certainly not! Anyway, I'm quite frankly the opposite. More withdrawn than him, crazy among my friends, but noisy onstage. Ah this world works in mysterious ways.

Gosh can I sleep on a full stomach? Better than an empty one (woke up with gastric before) ... it shows you're pathetically starving yourself, or just plain lazy to get out of bed for a midnight snack.

Toodles! I'm going to bed now, nighty-night! Tomorrow's a new day where people parade in front of animal enclosures to provide them their daily entertainment, especially when weirdos attempt to speak their language, but oft lost in translation.

So ... this will happen tomorrow:

Bro: Mummy! I can talk to the lion! ROAR!!!!

(Lion shifts on the sunning rock. stretches. yawns. smelly breath. bedtime)

Labels: CCA, Essence of Sprouting, Family, Food, To be a Child, What's up or new, WhatcausesJoy

Gosh .. I can't stand it when my mum talks loudly on the phone when I don't want her to. The lappy's next to the phone only, and it seriously puts me off, like when she swears at the table or brings the stress to dinner. God loves you when you don't have parents with such un-parent-becoming behaviour. :p, just scared her off when I was trying to fix the crappy earphones and the music blasted her off the chair. Yay!

I've gotta do up my schedule, do the camp, revision, homework, musical etc. Lots of things to do, and when I get home, I'm not in the mood for anything strenous. Poor me I woke up late and turned up for Math an hour late with a new croaky voice. Just as well, most of the stuff taught are stuff I already know and it doesn't really matter if I miss it.

Seriously, I don't get some people. I think I understand what I need for Math very well, and clearly the lessons are only acting as a reminder for the basics to me, not like a guiding hand. So I'll take that in my stride, though I was clearly shocked, surprised and insulted when I went to the first Math compulsory lesson. Crap ... some people don't even get Sec 2 stuff, if that's what they're teaching.

But I like it as a refresher, kick-starter and some clarification. The scary part is, it's like, when you don't know what to do for simple (really really simple) elementary math, you're most likely gonna flunk O's, and you still don't give a damn to listen and just think of skipping without being found out ... you're gonna end up nowhere. And they just don't get it. Oh well, it seems as though they're not very smart already, and trying to act smart. Puh-lease! Teachers are wasting their time over you people, lots of us desperately need appropriate help. - rolls eyes -

So now when I'm coated in a disgusting layer of grease while trying to cool off, I reminisce the journey (not the propaganda one) of musical. Right from doing 'Divorce' for the acting segment, to singing 'Tu' for the singing segment for the auditions. Now, my singing parts are all recorded and I truly realise how much work is done to singers' voices, which is why they suck singing live. Just when I thought we were doing fine, StephK has to do cut, paste and tweaking. Ouchhh. Byebye pride.

Honestly, sometimes, I just wish people would stop complaining about the musical and how "ELDDS is getting all the attention boohoo! The musical isn't going to be a success anyway and maybe they suck!!!". It's our turn now, and it's also a platform to summarise what your cca is about. We're trying to cope with that, and we got lots more stuff to do. So... it's much appreciated for some quiet time.

We're really tired and it's not very enjoyable to listen to such crap. We (besides the media people) go home at 7. Do you? So ... don't say another word. Bet you're opening your mouth in indignance now, but let's give each other some space to breathe and some air for encouragement. Maybe it's looking at the script that makes you feel this way, we felt the same too, but never judge anything by the cover. You haven't seen the results yet. Yet. Cut us some slack, and we won't give you the motivational cheer or wish you'd cross the yellow line and get knocked by the MRT. - imagines that happening - I'm a sadist when I'm tired. Giving credit to Shawn for this line.

So to whoever who reads this, trust us. Can? Ke yi ma? ¿Está eso bien?

It deeefeeecult, you get deeefeeecult?

If we do our own parts right and coordinate, with constant positive support, we'll do a show that exceeds your expectations and blow you off your seats to a standing ovation. Then, you'd be really sorry for saying such crap and try to hide how embarassed you actually are. Heh heh!

But I'm being serious here, even if you're my friend, if you shake your head and say 'No', you'd make me really upset. So take this as a warning just in case I explode. Don't put us down, you can't. We've worked too hard for this, it's been more than a decade since the last musical, and we really wanna do this well so that we can move on from here as success stories. Shut up if you won't appreciate. Life cannot wait for people like you.

La vida es esperanza

So in the name of the above foreign language words, I shall do an analysis.

These days have been strenous, and my ass is happy to touch a chair. NOT SHAWN! Even is he has gone from playing Joseph to playing Joseph's chair. Take this:

"Constance you must find interest in playing even the most mundane characters. You cannot be boring! You live for the audience" - Fanny

"LOOK AT ME! I'M AN EXCITING TREE! -sways with the breeze-" - Constance

It seems that I've taken my lessons well. Didn't go to waste eh.

Anyways, I spoke to StephK after today's practice. Good news for main cast, we're doing fine. Feels good to have almost everything down. Photoshoots, costumes, recording ... (:

Now i need to seriously put all the lines in my head, like sticking stuff with Superglue, rest well, arrange my schedule and work it all out, find my character and make it real fun. I've gotten over stumbling over my long lines. Fill up my MP3 and go out with some friends/family.

If I follow Steph's advice, yes I find myself having more fun. Though I need to do the cues and timings properly over and over again, breeeeathe correctly, mirror, lines, dramatise!

My character as Ng the teacher. Please give the full name. Anyone?

She's one-third typical teacher, one-third Mary Poppins, and one-third plain nuts, as nuts as Marlyna. All carried off with a touch of Chinese Calligraphy elegance and wisdom of the old, but still relevant. Okay, I sound like the government now. It's time to shut up. It's the fact that I'm gonna be the difference from the student characters that makes me stand out and spin the story I suppose. Connection, connection, connection. Must get the objective before each scene.

Typical Teacher: Well, educational and a bit tolerant of kids (ah well, they just wanna have fun) but doesn't get walked over. Modern and Miss-Lappenish. Lots of wisdom to impart. Fun. Teaches Chinese Calligraphy and History, so she's super knowledgeable and has lots of things to explain about. Always enthusiastic to make things less difficult for people but knows the route to take. On for hands-on learning, NON-PBL-ISH. I don't wanna insult myself on this.

Mary Poppins: Prim, proper British lady. Firm and fun, and makes it entertaining to watch. Never does anything wrong "Practically Perfect in Every Way". Thing is, she does do some things that are not acceptable by other poeple, but she finds that its actually okay, and then insists in a quick way that nothing is wrong. "What do you mean, Mary Poppins would never do anything like that. End of conversation". Not strict, just firm. Spit-spot! Anything but boring! Knows how to have fun, but seems like having fun in a super matured way.

Nuts: Well, she can be as nuts as Marlyna, except in a different way. I can choose to complement or contrast the characters.

Complement => When Marlyna goes kiss-kiss, I can be as nuts as her in doing that.

Contrast => Or I can be umm ... yeah sure .. kiss-....kiss. Don't touch me Marlyna.

It does kinda work in developing character. We should totally try this.

Thing is, sometimes, I hate it when I make a remark and expect people to forget all about it, and they take it too seriously. To be honest, I had no idea how to do the kiss-kiss thing, so I just said I was grossed out. But why did Fanny have to make such a big deal out of it. It stressed me out even more and I couldn't get it right.

It's like, I'm the type who doesn't work well under negative pressure, so chill, let me relax so I can do my thing well. Isn't that too difficult to grasp? Apparently, many people have really pissed me off cos of this, which is why I'm eternally grateful to Steph (yes shawn having a crush on her is completely within my understanding now) She's ever so patient, and I find that I produce better results for her than Fanny. Like getting my recording done nicely, speaking my lines with 100% ms ng and charisma. Otherwise, I'll fumble the shit out of everything. I'm already the low-confidence and twiddly-fingers kind, so it really DOESN'T HELP.

When the rest are patient with me, give me encouragement, I feel like I could do anything not to let them down. Feel good about what I'm doing. You can't really explain it, but after doing a solo recording, to see Marlyna, Mangala give you the thumbs-up, and wondering Shawn really means his positive remark, you just feel on top of the world.

Fanny's very very not constant. Like, she's really nice, then really mean. nice when she shows that she cares, and mean when she's stressed up. "OI MAIN CAST! LINES!" I hate it when teachers make mistakes, then brush it off. And we get yelled at? That's crap!

And they don't always come on time, though they say "YOU HAVE TO BE HALF AN HOUR EARLY!". Can ... you should start camping in school, and we should come on the next day. Cuz that's how it frigging feels like. Stephanie, on the other hand, is well, the complete opposite. I guess that's why we love her. Fanny's already pissed everyone on set off, including the teachers. Bet we piss her off too. xP. The world goes in a circle. Relish every line, every moment you have on stage and in life.

I'm not gonna fail everyone else, including myself. Just follow my ABCs for everything. Be more sure of myself. If shit comes, I'm ready to take it with a spoonful of sugar. (but you can have it first, no one likes to eat shit)

I can act, sing, dance (barely), and I can give you exact meanings of words you've probably heard of. No that's References from Dictionary.com

Charisma (noun) plural:

1. Theology, a divine conferred gift or power.
2. a spiritual power or personal quality that gives an individual influence or authority over large numbers of people
3. the special virtue of an office, function, position, etc., that confers or is thought to confer on the person holding it an unusual ability for leadership, worthiness of veneration, or the like.

Labels: CCA, Essence of Sprouting, Quirks, Real Life, Secondary School Life, Seeds of Smartness Sown to Show-off, What's up or new, WhatcausesJoy

Alright, this few days has been a wonderful turn for the musical. Now just gotta get the studying down.

The costumes are just fine, and Nichole's been very patient with my hair. Ah, she's ever so sweet. Though she probably feels like using the garden shears on my hair. Props kill.

Speaking of costumes, I've got different ones for photoshoots, stage and video and rehearse in my grey funeral costume (jss uniform). And yeah, it's less painful when i refer to it as a costume.

Gawsh, sometimes, life's a miserable lukewarm cup of milo. It's almost 25 deg., not hot and not cold and you just wanna puke it all out rather than feel the unstirred milo powder chalk your teeth and line your throat till you feel like puking.

Like the incident of Ms Phua (the real one, since we all know there can be only one of her, for obvious reasons ...). Thing is, it became my prop, and we were careful with it. Mangala picked it up from next to my bag and it just fell apart. She didn't tug at it or anything, just picked it up in her hand and that frigging bad quality shit of a plastic thread fell apart. And the smooth stone beads, tiny metal beads just rolled off the steps. And we stood there staring, our mouths agape, and Mangala's mouth was the size of Texas and with the most I-don't-believe-this face. And when i told Ms Phua, I got lectured "oh you must keep your props properly"

Like, it's not like I threw it on MRT train tracks right! Hmm .. maybe an elephant sat on it, then some European soccer team used it as a soccer ball, and it fell into a trumpet and game out through the other side ...

Of course I handled it with care and put it next to my bag WITH OTHER PROPS AND THEY DIDN'T FALL APART LIKE SOME FLIMSY UNRELIABLE NECKLACE. WTH!

Really, I examined the thing last night while trying to fix it (when I could be doing script memorising) and the part that fell apart was weak, (well, duh). Too bad I can't put everything back properly. Life sucks, what if I can't put it back properly or it falls apart again in front of her. See, "you must take care of your props". Tsk, I might even have to get another one and it's gonna be my fault. Joy. Waste money. It better not have any sentimental value, for I have none of that in my purse. Suay!

Really, what can you do when something bad is about to happen is just passed like "passing the parcel" game and it ends in your hands, though it's clearly none of your business?

Labels: CCA, Darkness, Secondary School Life

Okay! You know what happens when you put a bunch of stressed-up jokers on the set for musical. I mean, with the script, the propaganda, the Fanny (do not think sick), the propaganda, the Stephanie (stop drooling shawn), the propaganda, the main cast-chorus, the propaganda, the crap storyline, the propaganda, the costumes and makeup, and the propaganda ... well the list is never ending.

Seriously, it's gone to the point where it's gone to entertainment value. Here's why:

The following will be explained in quotes. Memorable moments call for memorable lines. As is with drama and literature.

(in no particular order cos i'm not biased) Directions: Main Cast Chorus Teachers-on-set Instructors Outsiders Publicisers (well, actually ... there's only one of them, the lady who spoke to the whole school as an address to the whole school on the last day of school. Wonder who?)



Why Marlyna loves Mariah Carey.

"TOUCH MY BODAY! I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN ~ (looks seductively at Mangala)" - Marlyna

Shawn gets special direction (and special attention) from all the adults. Omg, we are all so jealous.

"Shawn I'm gonna throw my sticks at you!" - Fanny

"Boy! Over here! Girl! don't be stiff! - refers to everyone as "boy", "girl", "student", or "teacher". - points to Shawn - Ah Shawn! Look forward! Shawn, don't need to check their poses! Shawn! Hold the basketball like that!" Shawn! ... (you get the point) - Photographer (who only remembers Shawn's name and correctly too! wow!)

Mangala's full name is Mangalambikai (oh my I got it right). But don't laugh if people get names wrong, it ain't funny. So stop laughing.

"Ah you! Mangalarice!" - Photographer

Anjelica is bored. She peels off the paint in the God-forsaken mug for the gardening scene. Constance is mean as Anjel peels off layer after layer of dried paint. When you're bored, you'd rather do something gross to entertain yourself. Or say something saracstic when you're pissed.

"Wow ... judging from all the layer of paint, this mug is probably as old as ... (fill in the blanks) many possiblilities so you can't really kill me on this

Shawn sings a solo. Start laughing. Original: Gotta work together to make the team stick!

"Gotta work together to make the team sick!" ... "I got it wrong, didn't I?" - Shawn

Anjelica ... is ... well ...

"I'm horny. Hey baby ~ - Anjelica <- This perv looked up my skirt. IMA GET YOU FOR THIS.

Mangala's mean too, but ... it's not really hard to tell the truth.

"Chinese teachers usually wear makeup and not shave their armpits"

Shawn has a crush on StephK, the singing instructor. You may stop shivering now.

"call me, or rather call stephanie to call me" - Shawn

"Shawn likes older women?" - Anjelica (well, duh.)

Marlyna put on a ghastly obiang cheongsam.

"(censored) Where the (censored) is my (censored) handphone?!"
"Why are you swearing so much?" - Farahin
"I'm in a (censored) pink dress!" - Marlyna

Ah .. life as a lookalike. Gosh, I never liked to look the same as other people.

"Constance! You look like Ms Phua! - gasps -", "Omg, I thought that was Miss Phua standing next to me", "You're like a minature Ms Phua (har? isn't she miniature enough?), "But nicer. (thanks) ... - Basically almost everyone present

"Really? Gee .. I don't know ... -scratches everywhere- - Constance

I'm mean! HEARTBREAKER!

"Maybe we can go for break with .. say .. Steph tommorow?" - Constance

"But no Stephanie tomorrow ... " - Shawn

"I know, just trying to making you sad." - Constance

It's very clear on what her stand is on beauty.

"Beauty isn't worth the pain - Constance (after getting skin peeled off in a painful manner from wearing heels)

"Huh?" - Ms Phua

Ms Queenie. Dance Instructor. The perfectest perfection. Or so she seems to claim.

"Who's Queenie?" - Anjelica

"Dance instructor. Diiiiiiva." - Constance

"Really? Even her name sounds diva-ish. Queenie. Lol." - Anjel

"Yeah ... - flips hair - I'm Queenie! Away you commoners!" - Constance

To have self-confidence is to love yourself.

"You wanna kisssss me! You think I'm preeeety!" - Marlyna

"I'm irresistable! I'm CUTE ... and HOTANDPRETTYANDSEXY!" - Marlyna

"It's good to live in self-denial" - Shawn

Nothing like a bit of real drama.

"Ohhh i think I'm gonna faint ... - falls back - - shawn not paying attention - WOAHHHH! - nearly crashes before Shawn's heroic, albeit blur rescue -

- Nichole. (yes this is the way to spell her name. and it's the first time Shawn forgot to catch her ... distracted by stephanie lah. oh wait, only fanny was present, which means ... ?)

Improvisation Impromptu!

"From my lungs through to my nose, my mucus is ready! ready to .. -ARHCHOO! - Shawn (to the tune of 'Hot') : The Mucus Song

"As WAN!! WAN JURONG!!! Giving back what's been given. Wow ... a song for Mr Wan." Shawn (to the tune of 'One') : The Wan Song

New word invented. Well I'm the smarterer than you XD

"I'm the cuterest!" - Nadrah

Teachers .. all they do is criticise.

"These kids are so evil. Gossip-mongers" - Mr Riduwan

Teachers .. they should confess more often.

"Well ... we were evil once" - Stephanie

Shawn loves her. As usual 2 that remark.

"3 CHEERS FOR STEPHANIE!" - Shawn

Only hear the right stuff. (: More coming up, stay tuned.

Till next time, folks. I'm dry of brain juice and memory now. The makeup sucked up everything in my head. Which is why girls who usually wear makeup a lot .. A LOT .. aren't the brightest creatures. Hmm .. who do you know wears a lot of makeup? Don't point fingers arh, yes Julia Gabriel stint-ers?

So I pose the question. What's worse? A smart bimbo, or a dumb one? Trust me, an encounter with a smart bimbotic really changes your perspective.

For more memories, ROFLs and complaining (sorry, feedbacking) about makeup, here's shawn.

http://woodchuckwoodchuck.blogspot.com/

Nothing cheem in this entry. Sorry to disappoint, but it's what you get when you hang out with musical monkeys for a few days straight.

Labels: CCA, Friends, Quirks, Real Life, Secondary School Life, What's up or new, WhatcausesJoy

I can't help it if my mum doesn't see the times that I study. How would I know if I have studied in school, and refuse to study anymore at home when she's around? Stroke of no-luck. I'm so ignoring her now, if I talk to her, I'm gonna lose control of myself. Of course I admit that there are times when I choose to slack off, but really, most of the studying is done when she isn't around.



I want to swear my mouth off again, for the tenth time this week.



This is just wonderful, my parents discussing what to do about me.

My life rocks. You must be so envious or rolling off your chair now.



Sometimes, it's just a whole load of shit, and you get nothing in the end. To put in effort, try to juggle and do everything right, and nothing is done. Worst still, done wrong.



5 minutes ago, I've lost my temper as of again. Crap, I'm losing the ability to form complete sentences and there's a headache drumming the back of my skull. Anyone who tries to talk to me now, will only make me fly off the handle.



Resist. Endure. Resist. Endure. Ommmmm ~



God I hate my brother now. Wonderful, I've just lost it again, and told my brother to shut up his mouth. It feels as if, I'm just letting out this stream of emotions in one scream. Shut up, shut up, shut up. Who cares if "your son is a bubbly boy full of wit and charm". Watch my foot go up your ass if I hear someone say this. He isn't that academically capable, and definitely lazier than I was. Which is why ... Life's all screwed up for me now. I hate it when my brother tries to act smart bout everything. If you say he's cute now, even if you're Mythili, I am going to yell at you or throw my stick at you, like Fanny. Don't piss me off now, I'm a soon-to-be-exploding volcano.

I've remained dormant ever since getting the results.



Great, my mum's trying to be all concerned about me now. All I want to do is just shut off and die. Kill me now. Think I should try to walk into a blind spot onto the road. Bang! and I'll forget everything.



Smart ass. I've only told my mum today, that I failed four subs. Wanna know which ones? Enjoy my pain, I'm hanging it out like linen that stupid upstairs-neighbours can dirty. I failed my Maths and Sciences. Ha ha ha!

Like wtf, I screwed up, for the millionth time. Ah well, not even English and Lit can cover my ass now. My L1R5's probably the same number as the years Lee Kuan Yew has been in power, which he still is now, by the way.



I have chosen not to tell my Mum until today.

Labels: CCA, Darkness, Secondary School Life, Teen Angst

Who gives a damn about High School Musical? Here's what you curious cats missed.

Preparations

I am not ready for singing/recording ...

Friends are always ever so sweet and helpful. Tips they have contributed:

1. Relax. If you don't, your voice cracks
2. Diaphragm singing
3. Lots of water (I went to the toilet the most, see i take advice seriously!!)
4. Drink at appropriate times (I went to the toilet less)
5. Take deep breaths before singing
6. Stand still

Take 1 Tuesday

We say hello to Stephanie Kwok the scriptwriter, songwriter for the first time, introductions are ... well ... strange. Mr Lam is freaked out, in case none of you saw, when she opera-ed her name.

Very pleasant experiences to come :)

Stephanie is proven to be very expressive, very patient, and fun. Love ya already.

Take 5

On the way to the Dance Studio, Stephanie sprains her foot, explaining why the bunch of us were late. Ouch... she tripped over a step.

Take 11

The other components of the musical, from the sports group, totally impressive. So totally pwned my pathetic performance as of then, you know, Fanny yelling at me before I could even open my mouth. They make me feel incompetent, and pressured to up performance. Considerably coordinated sports-inspired steps, worries Constance even more - sobs - .

They have a very very diva-ish instructor though. Check Shawn's blog for the priceless hair-flipping speech. Imagine this: "Ughhh! - pained expression - You people are not ... not beautiful!"

Take 24

We do scales and learn the songs, of which the notes are very high. I learn that I am terrified of missing cues, timings, tunes, etc. No problem with the notes though, but to really get the songs, I had to move to the rhythm .. ah well, there is a way to fix everything. To grasp the tune, I didn't really open my mouth, so it was kinda like mumbling to the paper, like what Ruth noted. But I'll get the tune first, to avoid embarassment.

Take 37

Everyone except for Anjelica, Marlyna and I leave. Anjelica and I learn and coordinate on the first song on the keyboard. Anjel tries to prevent flats, I get my timing.

Take 49

Constance tries the wayang Chinese opera for the first time. How the hell is it good?? Screechy pink-white face painted ladies/guys-trying-to-be-ladies. Laughing at me, Ng-s that seem never to end.

Marlyna is then left alone in the "torture chamber".

Take 67

11 to 12 AM. Constance stays up watching Chinese operas. Helpful, and not so helpful. Stuff are all in dialects, which is not Mandarin by the way. Helpful: Gui Men Dan (type of wayang character I'm supposed to do, is a matured, knowledgable lady, who brings out meaning of "Yuan" in elegance. Studied Mei Lan Fang's (a guy by the way, who is very good at playing girl characters) hand actions.

My mum thinks I'm weird.

But she doesn't understand Oman, which is a country, in the Middle East. Had to explain that to her too.

Stay tuned for Day 2.

Labels: CCA

hey bloggie and my "fans". keep telling me to update. bleh, gt more impt things okay! anyways, i'll do the template updates and the life updates, like now.

okay, on my list:

CCA

1. Finish details on Orientation Day 2 ELDDS
2. Read the Shakespeare abridged guide for the MAR 15 performance
3. Get updates from Mr Riduwan, my creative team (that's shawn n yq), the gal president ...
4. Get the materials needed ready, can't count on mr hairil.
5. Update them Sec 3 ladies
6. Ponder about the dilemma of the musical T.T

Done:

1. YAY! Mrs Dew's no. is in my hands!!
a lot .. cnt rmb (omg i am so proud of myself - wipes tear away)

BAD NEWS:

1. wtf! HUGE CHANGES OF THE BLOODY MUSICAL and the usual process of agree, destroy and recreate of the authorities is happening! Jesus, who can save us from this crisis?!!!

Okay.. School ...

-The aforementioned blank space will be recorded in the reflection booklet-

Went to the O'lvl results thingy today .. motivated and upset ... bittersweet ... dun wanna talk abt it ... hungry ...

A lotta things happened I guess ... for those of u around me, u shld be very clear pf wadz going on , poly trips, studying, slacking, pissiness, nutcase-ness, tests, CCA, tchers etc.

I'm kinda jaded right now ... rather satisfied with my eng compo though, 35/50 but my Amaths re-exam pretty sucky la. 23/40 ... wtf if its isn't for the 5mk leeway i'd have failed. i studied since dec...

okok, i needa stop nw.. like i said, i'm rly tired .. so nt much blogging i guess.. (:

Labels: CCA, Secondary School Life

wtf, the highest in 17 yrs PSLE score ... 294! genius la. Don't study, be the teacher! Either kids these days are getting smarter, or the paper is getting easier, or we were just plain stupid. YEP, mythili, i was shocked too. and kinda upset. my cousin she didn't do as well ): 206, haha, don't worry, there's no one here who knows ya! well, at least her horrible friend isn't coming to our sch. i hear my cousin's recount of her and i seriously think she's gt some probs. i dunno what is abt with pri. sch kids. HONEST. studystudystudy! what's worse, just now the 'genius' (no really, he isn't) in my family was listening to some disgusting HSM song. -.- certainly nt going to help him become smarter. Plus, the way my cousin speaks of the pple in her sch, like if you're with her, then we can't be friends and competing top students, I find it rather immature. GROW UP ALREADY.

anyways, today was open house dry run. HAHAHA, all my 'VISITORS' were big, gigantic, enormous, evil, intimidating, da fan shus (which means big-sized sweet potatoes in chinese, for all my non-mandarin speaking buds, you're welcome). lol. but one was nt present leh. cnt complete the group of 3 dafanshus. ahem, for all my geniuses who were present, i guess u guys know who i'm laughing abt, shan't say who ;)

anyways, i seriously wish we can have more guys in the cca, of course those who will listen lar and actually have an interest. the ratio is imbalanced. haha, complete opposite of hainan island's gender imbalance. need more male actors and debators and reps. oh well, breakfast tmr at MAC'S!

sooo yeah! hope everything turns out fine. needa go thru the remarks again. tsk. anyways, today discussion abt the musical was excellently productive! of course, mythili, seriously misses HER ROYAL HIGHNESS, i swear. can't stop thinking of her suspending above the stage. stil, quite funny la, i think if tt were to happen, nobody will pay attention to the play. she will steal all the limelight. but it's true. of we wanna make it funny, of course all we have to do is invite her onstage. simple. no need for any comedic expression.

YEP! so this is 4 you pple who are begging me to update the blogggie! well, actually, my laptop had lotsa probs, and turns out i have quite a lot of unpublished posts. so go hunt 4 them! ^^ see, i took time off maple! btw, i will be updating links later. have to go do some shitty homewk. wait, i have pple?! COOL!

Labels: CCA, Secondary School Life, Seeds of Smartness Sown to Show-off, What's up or new

flying fudge, yes that's the fancy name for the f word. :) ever since i accidently said the f word during lit class. I could've sworn i heard it in my head. honest. yeppers. well, that's what happens when u spend one week cooped in a room with potty-mouths like sathia and darren and stress-loaded weeks and YEARS of stress which takes a toll on you, you know.



recently, i've been pissed by a lot of thangs. most recently, a few minutes ago, by my parents. and one second ago. and its still going on now. bloody hell. don't they know the difference between a computer & a notebook?!



1. i'm not allowed to bring the laptop into my room or anywhere else other than the bloody living room. why? cuz i'm gonna go chat in secrecy in my locked room, which is nt even locked by the way.



2. that is the reason why my mom was reluctant to get the notebook.



WELL, this is my argument, P.O.V , of which is probably nonsensical, illogical, not worth listening to, and going to be ignored.

Labels: CCA, Darkness, Family, Quirks, Secondary School Life, Teen Angst

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