I can't help it if my mum doesn't see the times that I study. How would I know if I have studied in school, and refuse to study anymore at home when she's around? Stroke of no-luck. I'm so ignoring her now, if I talk to her, I'm gonna lose control of myself. Of course I admit that there are times when I choose to slack off, but really, most of the studying is done when she isn't around.
I want to swear my mouth off again, for the tenth time this week.
This is just wonderful, my parents discussing what to do about me.
My life rocks. You must be so envious or rolling off your chair now.
Sometimes, it's just a whole load of shit, and you get nothing in the end. To put in effort, try to juggle and do everything right, and nothing is done. Worst still, done wrong.
5 minutes ago, I've lost my temper as of again. Crap, I'm losing the ability to form complete sentences and there's a headache drumming the back of my skull. Anyone who tries to talk to me now, will only make me fly off the handle.
Resist. Endure. Resist. Endure. Ommmmm ~
God I hate my brother now. Wonderful, I've just lost it again, and told my brother to shut up his mouth. It feels as if, I'm just letting out this stream of emotions in one scream. Shut up, shut up, shut up. Who cares if "your son is a bubbly boy full of wit and charm". Watch my foot go up your ass if I hear someone say this. He isn't that academically capable, and definitely lazier than I was. Which is why ... Life's all screwed up for me now. I hate it when my brother tries to act smart bout everything. If you say he's cute now, even if you're Mythili, I am going to yell at you or throw my stick at you, like Fanny. Don't piss me off now, I'm a soon-to-be-exploding volcano.
I've remained dormant ever since getting the results.
Great, my mum's trying to be all concerned about me now. All I want to do is just shut off and die. Kill me now. Think I should try to walk into a blind spot onto the road. Bang! and I'll forget everything.
Smart ass. I've only told my mum today, that I failed four subs. Wanna know which ones? Enjoy my pain, I'm hanging it out like linen that stupid upstairs-neighbours can dirty. I failed my Maths and Sciences. Ha ha ha!
Like wtf, I screwed up, for the millionth time. Ah well, not even English and Lit can cover my ass now. My L1R5's probably the same number as the years Lee Kuan Yew has been in power, which he still is now, by the way.
I have chosen not to tell my Mum until today.
Labels: CCA, Darkness, Secondary School Life, Teen Angst
