Thursday was wonderful while it lasted .. all the way to 12am. It was as if, as if somehow I knew .. I knew .. today was going to be the biggest shit ever. And shit not in a good way.
Today's friggin fked from the start. Woke up to pathetic results, worst I've ever gotten, and then to upset people, then to the pathetic musical training with Fanny yelling at me when I'm already demoralised. Feels as though all these torture took me by the
flanks first, then worked inwards to my demented mind, damaged nerves and you guessed it, a broken heart. Not in THAT way la .. think so much for what.
If I were to see a doctor for this, my conflicting complaints would look like this:
1) Hysterics
2) Blankness
3) Worry
4) Panic
5) Concern
6) Couldn't-care-less-ness
7) Pain
8) Temptation to swear and kill someone
9) Frustration
10) Laughing like a hyena/lunatic
11) Tears falling the next moment
12) Mental and Physical Instability
13) Optimism
14) Pessimism
15) Wanting to yell at the guy who thinks it's very funny to say "OI CONSTANCE YOU CRY ARH!"
16) A mess inside my head
17) Smiling for no reason
18) Giving a
black face to a lot of people
19) Having the least normal behaviour (as usual) people cry, go quiet, laugh, complain, rant, shut off etc. and i do everything. smartass me, so versatile.
20) Encouraged and Discouraged
Har .. and they're all not the same :p. Damn, it's very difficult to understand someone like me I am sure of that. Sharon's already confused, and I have no idea if I'm in the right state to talk to anyone. Just blasting the music, watching leaves and sitting in a corner and finally admitting Fanny might be getting on my nerves, but I forgive her, cuz I don't have to do as much as her.
Yes shit is shit, and shit happens in life.
life is shitty, so i might as well give you some shitty meanings here. okay, it's so shitty i don't even bother to do some shitty linking. im in deep shit. (References from Dictionary.com) ... shitionary.flanks (noun):
1. the side of an animal or a person between the ribs and hip.
2. the thin piece of flesh constituting this part.
3. a slice of meat from the flank of an animal.
4. the side of anything, as of a building.
5. Military, Navy. the extreme right or left side of an army or fleet, or a subdivision of an army or fleet. Labels: Darkness, Essence of Sprouting, Questions, Secondary School Life, Teen Angst
