Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Second post for today, since I'm in a fairly unpleasant mood and I gotta vent it out to have a good night's sleep. Or even some revision. Sporadic renewals of pissiness since last year. My patience exceeds my expectations, time and again. Sweet Mother, refreshing oranges, I do love you so. I sense a headache coming ... The following of this post shall be explained in a non-reporting style, unlike my previous post on musical training.

I do adore Shakira's songwriting skills for a reason you know, somehow I find that I am able to relate or find that her words ring true in many situations. So in the musical mood now haha ~

Poem to A Horse - Shakira (check it out on Youtube or something, the tune brings out the meaning even more)

You’re too far to bring you close
And too high to see below
just hangin’ on your daily dose
I know you never needed anyone
But the rolling papers for your grass
How can you give what you don’t have?

The context of the song is about drug addicts, and well, their addictions (if you don't know, grass is what they call a drug to be smoked). Somehow, it can be applied to individuals that aren't really on literally drugs, but drugs of their own kind, that might be of their own undoing, which happened to be a product of their creation in the monster of their minds.

They can be so ... so self-deluded in their own world, so self-centred, egoistic, ego-centric (ha! learnt this word from debate). Their ditzy illusions have unfortunately blinded them, and they can't really see the truth, even though it's right smack in front of them. Everyone is aware, except for those living in lala land. It pains me to think that they think that I am the one who is hopelessly blur and confused, and too nice to care. Oh sweet irony, open the eyes that your mother blessed you with. You are the one who is unaware, even though you think you're oh-so-smart.

It's as if, without being a total friggin' ass, you can't pass a day. No words can express my sympathy, I know not whether to feel any anger, or pity.

How can you give what you don't have?

You keep on aiming for the top
And quit before you sweat a drop
Feed your empty brain with your hydroponic pot
You start out playing with yourself
You get more fun within your shell
Nice to meet you but I gotta go my way

It's difficult for me not to feel sorry for you. When will you wake up? Somehow, I do have a nagging feeling that your attitude will lead to incompetence, which will eventually pull you down in a world that is more unforgiving. Cross the limits! Come on, nothing will happen, as far as you are concerned. Sweetie, life isn't a bed of roses. Cliched, but the thorns shall slice into your flesh sooner or later, take caution. Go ahead, some of us might enjoy your pain. Not necessarily me, no matter how many times you've hurt me. To have a heart of gold ... is priceless nowadays. I'm not Mother Theresa, even though I do try to be rid of negative emotions.

Nice to meet you, but I gotta go my way.

Chorus:

I’ll leave again
Cause I’ve been waiting in vain
But you’re so in love with yourself
If I say my heart is sore
Sounds like a cheap metaphor
So I won’t repeat it no more

For everyone, one must never judge them beforehand. Tried and tested, and many chances have been given, but unfortunately, it's hard to cooperate isn't it? I'm sick and tired already. You can be such a paradox, whenever you judge me. Ever heard of "LOOK WHO'S TALKING?"

As is Myanmar, a country brimming with precious stones, but they're all worthless when the junta squanders the cash away, ruining the people and the land. I don't need to get started on human rights or lack of labour safety.

I have to leave now, what others are showing you have fallen on deaf ears or blind eyes. Were you born like that, or grown to be like that?

Whatever, I'm wasting my time. Only typing this post to vent frustrations and improve my writing flow. You mean nothing to me. Afterall, indifference is the most effective tool of self-defence. If you hate someone, it means you still care. Good morrow, 'scholar'. I can't help you anymore. Amazing, one of the rare times I gave up on somebody like you.

So I won't repeat it no more.

I’d rather eat my soup with a fork
Or drive a cab in New York
Cause to talk to you is harder work
So what’s the point of wasting all my words
If it’s just the same or even worse
Than reading poems to a horse

Gave up, give in to your ridiculous ways. Stubborn, spoilt and impaired. To be materially blessed guarantees nothing about character. I give props to the person who is able to play nice in a world that's rough and tough. I find that if I lose control of myself, it's equivalent to have lost the battle completely. Though I do feel the urge to show physical violence, I shall not resort to that, though I do feel that if we were ever caught in such a situation, I can take you. Out, that it. (: I might be small, but don't underestimate me. I do know what to do, and as long as you're not those ladies who wrestle on wwe (shit show, btw) or something, you're not much of a threat either. If we both go down, you're going down first. Ah well, physical violence is not the answer, that we should be matured enough to know. As much as I do have the ability to make you cry like a limping puppy, I choose not to. So, don't shit with me. Karma's a bitch. Alas, I shall be more civilised than you, since you've already proven to be otherwise, I see I have the upper hand. Strength, I shall always have control over myself. Since I do receive very helpful advice from people, it is possible that I can adapt, or to live in a bubble, and to remain true to myself without letting you walk all over me like this. What I lack in physical strength, I shall make up for it with brains, wit, intelligence (omg, I'm so proud of myself), endurance and communication skills. Suddenly, I don't feel so bad about myself anymore, cuz you clearly have none of the above.

Many had hoped that you would learn, but no, you didn't. Did you even try? If I did something wrong, I do try my best. So, you're actually given many chances by many people. Unwittingly, you threw them all away. Go back to preschools, you barely know your ABCs - Attitude, Best and Compassion.

I'm sorry I can't change the world's perception or your attitude, or lack thereof. - Sniggers - Ah, it's much to be desired. My A maths results might suck, but then, why do I feel it's much easier to change that than an attitude? Consequences, remember that. I cannot allow myself to stoop to your level, we all know I'm too good for that.

Reading Poems to a Horse.

If you're the Chinese person, it's a metaphor, like 对牛弹琴.

Sure you might be able to read those four words, but you don't really get it do you?
Slammed, before being slapped, and now, Good-Bye. Kisses.

♥Peace out♥

Disclaimer: I've never specifically said who, so don't jump to conclusions, ya?

For nice and nasty readers alike ... (References from Dictionary.com)

Sporadic (adj.):
1. (of similar things or occurrences) appearing or happening at irregular intervals in time; occasional: sporadic renewals of enthusiasm.
2. appearing in scattered or isolated instances, as a disease.
3. isolated, as a single instance of something; being or occurring apart from others.
4. occurring singly or widely apart in locality: the sporadic growth of plants.

Paradox (noun):
1. a statement or proposition that seems self-contradictory or absurd but in reality expresses a possible truth.
2. a self-contradictory and false proposition.
3. any person, thing, or situation exhibiting an apparently contradictory nature.
4. an opinion or statement contrary to commonly accepted opinion.

Egoistic (adj.):
1. pertaining to or of the nature of egoism.
2. being centered in or preoccupied with oneself and the gratification of one's own desires; self-centered

Egocentric (adj.):
1. having or regarding the self or the individual as the center of all things: an egocentric philosophy that ignores social causes.
2. having little or no regard for interests, beliefs, or attitudes other than one's own; self-centered: an egocentric person; egocentric demands upon the time and patience of others.

Indifference (noun):

1. lack of interest or concern: We were shocked by their indifference toward poverty.
2. unimportance; little or no concern: Whether or not to attend the party is a matter of indifference to him.
3. the quality or condition of being indifferent.
4. mediocre quality; mediocrity.

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