sometimes, i feel like going crazy. as much as this is the first time i have blogged in millenia, it's just that, maybe i do not belong on this planet. growing up kinda hurts, which sucks, because you learn the hard facts of life, the hard way. then again, i would rather be the intelligent person who is unable to laugh among happy people. would i?? crap, what a place to be stuck in. i think i take things much too seriously, wait, i DO. i should just enjoy what bit of childhood i have left. instead of wasting it away like that. but i can't. maybe it just takes a bit more for me to overcome. becuase of my personality i suppose. hopefully by sec 4, i would have got over this. and i will actually be the one saying " this is how it is ". just one of my emo moments i suppose. as much as i think i have actually left a bad impression with clarissa, and i am going to do sth abt it, btw.
do i actually want to be with them? please forgive my rants, then again it is a blog. sometimes, what people say affect me, to a great extent. and yet, somehow, i am sometimes happy and proud of myself that i have not changed myself to obey their requirements of a person who is socially correct. i pride my crushed confidence-self on that. i do believe that it is partly the "expectations" of them and my self that is 'weird' that is somewhat responsible..
Labels: Darkness, Essence of Sprouting, Questions, Teen Angst, To be a Child
