If the cure for a broken heart is love (so says Shakespeare), then the cure for broken faith is a miracle.
(This will be an egocentric post)
I gotta stop being unconfident. And I need a professional counsellor.
At 2am, before I slept, I decided that what I'm seeing now isn't my true potential. Surely I could do so much more before, why not now? It's amazing how 4 years of secondary school really dragged me down like this, but I won't say it hasn't toughened me up. The O's is just another test I suppose. Wine becomes more valuable as it ages... wish I could say the same about women.
Watched the Proud Family Movie yesterday, haha well, I love Oscar the daddy the most. So unreasonable he's actually funny. A very Will Smith kinda daddy, but a lot snappier. He disallowed his daughter to turn 16 cos she kissed a boy. LOL freaking funny!Grandma: I'm going to soak in that hot tub until I get all wrinkly.Oscar: Too late for that mama. Anyway, I'm going to have to stop this unconfidence from standing between me and a successful life. I can do so much more, and I will. Like Pi says, fear is but an impression. I used to have a lot more drive and motivation... and I did reach heights I didn't think possible.
Therefore, I conclude that I do have strengths besides academics. And that I'm not academically stupid. If I did it before, I can do it again. If I haven't done it, then I can do it too. I know what I'm doing.
Counting the number of "I"s, this post is really... diva-ish. Haha oh well, personal space.
Anyway, on a positive note, I'm really glad to see that EL is getting more recognition, esp after the musical. Well, negative recognition is nothing that we can't handle. Just that I knew that focussing more on the musical would be a long-term bargaining chip, and we got the best drama and debate trainers now. Saved!
Well, just really happy that what the seniors wanted to see (for generations) did happen. Of course it probably comes with catches since it's obvious that they aren't really into cultivating arts for all the authentic glory that it has. More of, I train you, you do propaganda through drama for me. Quite a shame, but it's a start. So be prepared juniors.Well, I'll be needing work in the holidays, something to keep me occupied and earn my keep! Sounds so...
Haha, anyway, which reminds me it's time to be very good friends with StephK.
Labels: Essence of Sprouting, WhatcausesJoy
