I can be so inattentive when I cook. Rice turns out.. yucky.
I know, how much can you mess up making rice???
It gets all clumpy and feels uncooked, which is bad when it's meant to be porridge.
Okay enough of the porridge-talk. It's time for a deeper post other than my "frivolous" activities.
A crappy take on serious .. things:
From a conversation yesterday before sleepytime with Smarties, it did make me wonder if at some point in our lives, all humans would have attempted to seek something beyond our earthly grasp. Not necessarily succeeding, but attempting, and questioning the existence of a higher power.
Hence, religions, agnostics, atheists, free thinkers. Since they have at some point pondered the question itself, they would've picked a belief, not necessarily religious. More of formed an opinion of the world, the otherworld and how it all works.
Then of course, for every person who puts forward a point of view, there would be many challenging it, that are by reason not too incoherent.
Then again, it's called faith yo. Faith with reason hardly makes any sense to non-believers of any kind, whereas a believer would probably find that it makes all the sense in the world, and if it didn't (because of our limited experience and knowledge), how strange is it that they still believe in it.
Self-delusion or divine intervention?
Sidenote: This is why I'd rather not read anymore materials that challenge any point of view. It's like, we all know
(common knowledge) we don't know everything
(aka not omniscient), and by insisting that somebody doesn't know everything because he doesn't know the things you know
(arguing that one point of view is false or incoherent), it seems to say you know everything from the things you already know
(your limited knowledge), thus you are challenging the knowledge
(that we all know) that we don't know everything
(biting yourself in the ass). HEHE, just say the whole paragraph without the brackets.
Of course, this is just one point of view if we take into consideration we don't possess all knowledge as of now. Some of us might choose to believe that we'll know in due time, but the irony is well... a bit of a headache. Cos we don't know everything now, how do we know if we'll know everything in the future?
If the serious crap (oxymoron alert) I'm talking is confusing you, you can stop now haha.
So anyway, I shall state my stand in a world of differing views. Being a Christian, of course you'll know what I believe in (duh). Not too complicated to know the basics of the basics.
Therefore, I believe that there is indeed a higher power. A 3-in-1 that is. (well it makes the concept a lot easier to understand, and don't mistake it with coffee).
Like every other Christian, in all innocence, I do seek connection with God. Which brings me to this: How am I going to do that?
Not like I have an answer of course, this blog poses more questions than answers, more opinions
(sometimes emotional) than facts
(then again, what's a fact? Until someone can prove that Newton's laws are false, we take them as it is, yes? And everyone studies them til their eyeballs drop out and one day they decide that "oh sorray, some genius proved centuries of Physics wrong" then we gotta re-study everything. Of course, this is just an anachronistic setting).Mmmm, well the last time it was a nice, reassuring, engulfing warmth that took away all my troubles and made everything more beautiful than I had noticed before, like a mother's touch, but more surreal and having a strange otherworldly quality. The stresses of the world melted away like butter on hot toast, leaving a delightful aftertaste and a more confident corn.The air was pretty still but for that to happen, I seriously doubt it was self-delusion because for the people who might argue I was feeling warm cos it was a night with still air, it's a little hard to explain how a rise in temperature (that I felt) could give me so much security and reassurance. A psychological working of it's own? I doubt it too, I can't manipulate my body and mind like that, and as far as I know, I've only done it in a negative way.
Perhaps that is how it's going to be done for me. If He comes in ways that we are most receptive to... of course to only selected people, I suppose it's going to be how I'll be spoken to. Not say, in a dream (I have weird dreams), an audible voice (that could freak me out, so no. I'll think I'm hearing things), a chorus of angels (dramatic seh), a moment of realisation
(okay maybe).Well I guess that warmth works best for me, because for the proceeding months, I kept that experience in mind, knowing that I was definitely safe and taken care of. Which was what I need, and I was able to withstand any challenges to my adversaries and doubts of that experience.
Smarties might be of the prophetic kind, Steph might have dreams that she was so sure it was more than something her brain was capable of ... for me,
I'll believe it when I feel it.
Time for some card-making and Ruffles.
Labels: Pondering
